This post comes from Nancy R. Smith, a retired deacon and now pastor of Bridgton UMC in Bridgton, Maine.
On the Eve of Commissioning as a Permanent Deacon
Consider the pot and the potter:
On this day before commissioning
this day of enjoying friends and marking time
and observing the community in which I have become a novice
Why can’t I be still
and allow the forming
and trust the process
And let God create the opening into my inner being?
Because making a pot or vessel involves
punching and pulling
and slapping and throwing –
Long before the shaping of the inner beauty.
And sometimes the potter must scoop up
all the waste and brokenness
and pound it into a big heap
And begin again.
And so, on the eve of commissioning
I sit in awe of the process thus far
And tremble in wonder at the formation yet to come.
What are you making of me, O God?
Why did you select this process for me?
For surely your call is not so much to do, or even to serve,
As to be – or rather, to become.
--© Nancy R. Smith June 8, 2001